LONELINESS BY A LONER

I asked someone the other day, Are you lonely? And she replied with, George what do you mean by Lonely? It made me think, because for a long time, i have been 'feeling alone' in this big ass world and 'feeling like' no one actually cared on a deep level, I lost touch with the person i used to tell what was really bothering me, and then to compensate for that i became friends with a bunch of other people, who talked shit all day, smoked shit all day and never actually really connected with me on a me level, I've never been one to over expect from people, because all my life, I've been brought up witnessing and confirming the notion that people are shit, I'll probably die with that, but i digress, loneliness as i have come to know is a state of mind, where you are not necessarily alone, but a situation where all the people around you, on a deeper level, do not think like you, where a very ambitious mind, that dreams about opportunities that could be harnessed and turned into resources, but the people around him just want to fuck, get high, party and have fun. When you want to be analytical and open-minded and love people, but everyone around you is sexist, misogynistic and very rudely homophobic, where you cannot express your true feelings and sadly you start to slowly die inside because the sheer stupidity around you is incomprehensible. Loneliness when no-one understands your choices so some days you go all quiet and ponder how it would be like in a different universe and a different time, But that might be just me tho. Your Definition of loneliness might be different from mine but that is exactly the point i'm driving at.




So from the use of Profanity, i got an idea that would in a way make my blog more unique, Personally, i am foul mouthed, and I am even more foul minded, I have crazy conversations in my head, i feel like we all do. But with the help of a little damn, shit and fuck here and there, I can rant here, because basically that is all what this blog is about, The rantings of a young twenty sometime year old that is fed up with society and with what is happening.

WHAT IS LOVE?

Young people watch movies, read shitty articles and see so many pictures, videos, gifs and whatnot, twitter, reddit and social media in general, all they see, me included, is sex sex sex, fucking sex. Im binge watching Californication and this guy is fucking a new girl every single day even mother and child right, but thats not true life, sorry guys forgive me, i'm a little bit not into it tonight, so forgive my rather lack of punctuation, i'm having noodles and ice tea at 2am and i've got a project to finish up. But back to the subject, we live in a world of illusions, where young people just want to rub their genitals against each other's. And no one is helping, our parents don't talk to us about this stuff, our politicians make laws against sex education, Preachers for young people don't even go close to the subject instead describe it with the fucking worst analogies and then threaten the shit out of us with hell and burning in a fire, well sorry, you all helped fuck us up. You made technology, we perfected it, now it's biting us in the ass. We don't know the difference between love, sex and lust anymore, stupid terms like friends with benefits, friendzone all revolve around the need to have or not have sex with someone. Well i don't think anything is changing anytime soon but at least I can talk about it. Well sorry for all the swearing and all the grammatical error. See you guys later.

IF I DISTURB YOU.....

So someone went to tell my brother that they should pray for me, they should get help for me and so many other things, that i have gone too far, that if something is not done now, i will be too far gone to help. Wow, just because you are privileged to be in my circle on social media does not mean you have the right to talk to my family about whatever i put on my social media. I have so many issues with the norm of the society i live in. I ask questions about everything, i have always been fascinated in what normally the society sees as 'weird', I embrace that weirdness and thats what gives me the spice i have now. I have doubts about everything, Life, Gender, Sexuality, Religion and 'funny enough' God as we know him in this present age, If what i post disturbs you, and you cant bear it, delete me, trust me i wouldn't care, if you feel like you care, you are on here already. Talk to me about it, thats why i ask questions and talk about stuff based on my present Understanding. But i read everyday and everything i can, so that my understanding is not closed off and stagnated. I refuse to base all my understanding based on one point of view. talk to me about whatever disturbs you, some other people do that already on twitter, engage me and i will give you reasons why i say what i say. if you convince me otherwise, i study up, learn and change. But stop talking to my siblings about me and telling them stuff that even if i did them, i would never and i have never done around you, cut the crap. Grow up and Get a Life. Thanks.